pigsRcute

Escape

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 08:11:16 GMT

I need a place to escape
A haven to feel safe
I know it is not wise
To keep living with lies

But you do not know
How it is to feel ashamed
Of the past, the present, and life.
And all the secrets I hide

It gets harder each time
When I have to wake up
And realise that all I have
Is all that I do not want

The memories haunt me
Most days and everynight
Dreams are just somewhere I go
If sleep approaches in kind

To some this may seem ludicrous
That the smiles I have are real
Yet I have never known happiness
Inside this heart of mine

All I ever wanted, was a simple life...
---min

141220081604

Daddy.

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 08:31:02 GMT

What makes a man smile,
His child's laugh, a loving touch.
And the word 'Daddy' means
Take my hand and hold the world.

Do you wish for a child?
Of you and someone you know you love?
And looking at your child,
Believing the innocence that makes her eyes sparkle.

I hope for you, to have it all.
One day, you will.

For my bff, inb4awwyou'resosweet. L.O.L
but it's true, I believe someday you will. =)
---min

Weed

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 20:46:54 GMT

You know what they say about taking things for granted.
Don't you?
Like when you see this place for a thousand times,
You failed to see the blue of the sky. Shades.
Do you see?

I smoked weed. You know what it's like.
Heaven among clouds.
But I wasn't even that high.
I tried. Though it wasn't all that pretty that night.
You know why.
Coz only I know, I lied.

So you think you can understand.
A life of a junkie. No frills, seriously.
Actually what I needed, is just a silly game.
Of love, of life, of you.
And of course, a place where kids never die.

Backdated: Nov 18 2008

Twistedwithin.It's good and bad.To be back.
To where I don't belong.Yet.

Stranger

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 19:26:56 GMT

We. Have we loved before?
I believed I did.
But We. Did you love me once?
I know. You need not speak.

Strange. Those eyes.
That never looked.
Stranger. Those lips.
Untouched, by me.

Love. Afterwards.
There is no after.
Love. Goodbye.
I am afraid. Say it.

Stranger. You are.
As if we've never met.
Strangers. We are.
So goodbye...

I've said.

Goodbye...can you hear me?
I need...another 2304 days to hate you.
That was the day, we met.
---min.

Fire,worked.

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 18:22:10 GMT

I saw fireworks today...
Blue, Green, Red and Gold...
I thought of them.. As pretty little things.
How they sparkled, and disappeared.

I wished I had someone special.
To watch the fireworks with me.
Do I? I do.
But it's not you.

I walked in the rain today...
Just like we did once.
I thought of then... Our beautiful past.
How I laughed, but it disappeared.

I wish I had someone now.
To walk in the rain with me.
Do I? I don't.
Because I no longer want a memory of you.

I loved watching the fireworks.
I can watch them alone.
I don't need you.

Do I?
---min

Heaven

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 14:13:39 GMT

Do you know what Heaven looks like?
Is it a beautiful place?
I miss looking at this faraway paradise,
or is it just my imagination I see...

Do you remember where Heaven is?
I've been there once, or twice.
It is a place where only angels sing,
of a love story, of happy endings.

I miss this place called Heaven.
Where you will hold my hand,
and tell me promises of eternity.
Do you still remember Heaven, like me?

I loved this Heaven we both know.
But you've long forgotten our Heaven.
You realised one day, in this world
there never was Heaven, there was only me.

You wanted Heaven, but not me.
---min

Do you believe in Heaven, anyway...?

Deleted.

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 15:52:30 GMT

It's empty. I can feel the emptiness.
I reached out to it and it grasped me by the hand.
And I did not let go.

It's still empty. As always.

I'm just feeling a little... I don't know.
But yeah, saturday night.. hoorayy...
I'm stucked here. Doing god know's what.

And I don't like it. Fucking don't like it.

Empty spaces.
Just grant me my wish to sleep tonight.

Erase the above. Press shift+up+delete.

Your name

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 18:06:09 GMT

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It's one am now. I've logged into msn, and there you are.
Your name, just your name.
I spent a long time looking at your name.
I even opened a window eventhough it's just an empty space.
You are away...as you always are.
And so... I'll keep looking at your name.

This song...
It has been a long time since a song made me cry.
Perhaps it's all too familiar.
Listening to this song, and thinking about the times
when we would go and sing.
Even if that was only a thing of the past.

I don't know what else to say.
Except for listening to this song,
I don't even know what else to do.
Except for looking at your name,
But I don't think you know that I do.

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That's right...I don't know how anymore.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8G8bBFp6FE

Lies

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 06:34:32 GMT

I probably need to blog more often. And I wonder why.
Anyway...

Not to stray from the subject, I guess I'm hearing lies
almost everyday now.. And perhaps I've said more than
my fair share of them.

Because you know what?
All of us just simply can't handle the truth.

So we stick to our pretty lies... Safer isn't it?

I haven't heard from him since the message..
Impersonal message. I suppose that is his way of saying
goodbye.

And mine? Silence suits me better. Words always fail.

There is really nothing left for me now except to move on.

Voices resonate like echos trapped
In my mind I see a shadow of retracting footsteps
Every time I tried, but I couldn't place a name
Does that mean I've finally started to forget
Every thing that belonged to Us, if there even was an Us
Reliving the memories seems a little foolish when
None of those memories ever mattered to You

I think J. will understand the meaning behind this,
afterall, you were the one who taught me.

I'll never see you again...
---min

Perth

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 15:06:31 GMT

hey guys.. =)

more updates from me...(as promised)

for starters..I'd just mention..
Girls love receiving flowers,
even when they deny it vehemently..

Like me.

haa...

Alright then..
I've been having video calls with
my dearest ahyong, gege and vonne...

this are the two lovable bears..

We took a bus to a nearby shopping mall,
Carousel.. their bus system uses a 'tag card'
similar to our ez-link..

But if you pay by coins..it's actually a slip of paper..
stating the time and place you board and
what time the ticket will expire..

As we wait.. A rainbow appeared!
This place is actually the back of another
shopping mall, Waterford.

Which happens to be the nearest place
for groceries from my hostel...

And this, the inside of the bus..
Very different from our buses in SG,
plus the drivers are usually very friendly..

They will say 'How are you?' when you board..
And passengers usually say 'Thank you'
when they alight..

Along the way, another rainbow!
Does that bring luck? haa..

And yeah.. vandalism is quite common in
the public transport of perth...

There are even posters against
"Grafftidiots" in the buses and trains..

I went to perth city via train,
this time with my dorm mate...
They have priority seats for the
elderly, pregnant and disabled..

A look at the interior..
To go between cabins, we actually have to
press a button to open the sliding doors..
Which means we can't stand in between
the carriages like what we do on MRTs..

Hmm..also.. in perth, train tracks run in the middle
of their highways as well... =)

Wanna show the picture actually,
but some error message came up...

Well, that's about all for now...
I'll upload more pictures of the perth tour
which I went this morning...

There's the vineyard..chocolate factory..
wildlife park.. and the habour..

More to come..
Good night people..

I heard this on the bus...and thought of him.
"Just like a tattoo..I'll always have you."
---min